Today was my first
Sunday by myself and in a new ward.
It was interesting. I sat by my self, which I think was the hardest part of the whole thing. The opening song made me start to tear up, but I am very proud of my self for not letting the tears come out, since the people in my ward don't know me yet! That might have been a little weird.
But 2
Nd and 3rd hour were good. I think I might actually like this ward. There was a girl that introduced her self to me a couple of weeks ago and knew that
Deric would be gone, so she made it a point to come find me and ask me how I was doing. I enjoyed that and am very thankful to her for asking me that today.
To keep me some what busy when I get home from work, I have been writing in a journal that is all about how I am feeling during this deployment. Its actually been very helpful to write it down . Here is some of the things I was thinking about the 1st full day
Deric was gone:
January 14
ThI used
Derics shampoo. I miss his smell. I also changed the sheets today, which was super hard to do. It was nice to be able to still have his scent in the bed. I miss his silly jokes and him making fun of me. I miss him playing the
Wii and getting
frustrated with his
cabelas hunting game, not knowing what animal he is
supposed to be hunting. I miss him leaving the lights on and me having to go turn them ALL off before we leave, which he is putting them back on just to get me angry. I even miss the Mt. Dew bottles ALL over the house, which in all honestly used to drive me NUTS. I miss kicking him in the middle of the night and waking up to tell him sorry. I miss the cereal bowls, his alarm going off at odd hours of the morning, I miss hearing him come up the stairs and ringing the door bell before he comes in the house. Every little thing that he does, that used to bug me I miss. I feel like I didn't get enough time with him as my husband before he left. He is going to be gone longer than we have been married. Which totally sucks.
My crying comes in waves. Its weird. At sometimes I am super strong and don't cry, but then I see something of his that we didn't put away before he left, like his pillow, or his mt dew bottle that he was drinking in the car on the way down to base. Its the little things.
Ranya has been a huge support to me and I hope to her. It has been very hard on her as well. We have decided to make a specific night each week to go to the temple, and another night of the week to go see movies. Get us into a regular schedule and that way we have something to look forward to at the end of the day.
Its getting easier each day. It is easier now that
Deric is able to call me and text me while he is in Japan. I
don't know how it will be when he is on the boat or when he is in Thailand. It will be interesting to see the level of
communication we will be able to have. I am not really looking forward to him being away from Japan. Just for communication purposes.
But to keep myself busy I have been making these adorable baby accessories. Trying
at least. I have sold a couple with the held of Annette, the lady I nanny for. I am so glad I found them. They have been a huge part in me being able to keep it together while
Deric is gone. The kids are fun and keep me busy all day.
Makena is 4 and loves
Deric to pieces. Every day she asks me how he is doing and even loves to talk to him when he calls. So here are some pictures of the things I have been keeping my self busy with. Enjoy!
new born flower pot hat!
alligator flower clip.
newborn flower hat(this is for
mackenzie shaw sorry)
tulle puff head band
converse shoes. I did the jewels on it. that is a flower pattern in the red.
